February 7, 2018

THIS YEAR I WANT TO EMBRACE MY BODY MORE. WOULD Y’ALL BELIEVE I HAVE THE POTENTIAL OF LOOKING LIKE A SNACK, IF I STOPPED HIDING UNDER ALL THESE BAGGY CLOTHES LMFAOOOO LIKE, I’M HOT I SWEAR.

This post is about my body and what I want to do with it. Not what people think I should do with it. Becoming a grown ass woman comes from within and from personal experiences of which I’ve had many traumatizing and beneficial.

A little bit about my body: I truly believe taking care of my body is like the easiest job ever, until I remember ordering take out takes only 2 seconds. Next thing you know I’m consuming, twice as much in one take away than in a home cooked meal. Not having the passion for cooking is another factor that holds me back from being a skinny legend. I have the biggest sweet tooth ever, like ever; and I just want to say whoever invented patisserie I f***** hate you, but I love you. When it comes to mens’ I don’t really care much for their personal opinions of my appearance, the looks I serve and the weight I gain. Who needs that negative energy. Thanks to the media and fashion industry we are constantly being indoctrinated and bombarded with some dumb ass beauty standards, leaving us women to self-consciously judge ourselves anyway. However I want to take even better care of my body this year. In terms of what I put on and what I put in… um yeah.

I always want to go to the gym but the fear of 5'1 me surrounded by actual gym heads that know what they’re doing is super intense. My heart palpitates as soon as I enter like “what more do you want from me” goes through my head. But going to the gym to get toned AF is what I need to do for my personal well-being. My body inspirations honestly range from Karrueche to Thicke Rihanna. Although my ideal body type and is to be 10x slimmer than I am now. I have a whole booty and some thighs like a dixy chicken meal but, I can make it work right?

So (yeah I’m one of those new year new me motherfuckers). I realised last September that if I wanna change something it is achievable right now. Instead of me in real time calling up Kebab Rush to make me a kebab with a side of 10 spicy bbq wings. I can go to bed early as an alternative to consuming a 4th meal or eat a fucking pear bitch.

AND WHEN I reach my body goal (like Im really determined on losing my booty, it just inhibits me from wearing any fucking thing). Might I add are all my friends are tall dark skinny legends. But WHEN I REACH my body goal, girl, you’re gonna see a whole lot of confidence from this one.

I’m using this post to let y’all know I’m not sexualising myself but embracing my sexy which is the most awkward thing ever for me. Like I feel like I could survive without homeboys compliments… I am really trying to build my confidence yo. I’m already freaking out but all my friends are sexy asf and have taught me there’s nothing to be scared of it’s just a little body.

HOW CARLA GOT HER SEXY IN THE FIRST PLACE: NEXT TIME WE TALK ABOUT BODIES.

UAL BA Journalism Grad: carlaaureliem@gmail.com

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