As the new year rolls in, I’ve taken it upon myself to write one of those gratitude lists. Noting down what I am grateful for and want I to achieve this year. Upon reflection I felt a variation of emotions and noticed, I had a series of negative thoughts that have kept me in the same position that I don’t want to be in.
Phase one of my mood swings: Regret — I’ve done fuck all this year!
For the majority of the year it felt like, one minute I was begging for the start of Summer 19 (which truly was the highlight of the year). The next minute Summer was over. I remember promising myself that I would go into hibernation and “grind”, and before I knew it December had and already came and went. In between that time I had been stuck in retail, which to me had no relation to my goals apart from making bank. Yet I still felt like I had achieved little to nothing from my personal goals.
Phase two of my mood swings: Reasoning — I just don’t have good luck…
As much as I’d like to believe that I am free thinker, I’ve been highly influenced by social media and the world of celebrity. This belief that determines I must be successful by a certain age or it doesn’t count; has been gripping me by the nipples. Deep down in the back of my mind, I know that everyone reaches milestones at different points in their life. We all determine success in our own personal ways too, but consistently being bombarded by other peoples success has made me question myself… and my capabilities. Am I enough?
I had an enlightening conversation with a friend as she spoke about her struggles with completing tasks and achieving success. I wonder if everyone has these moments of self-doubt? Our conversation concluded with the key to success is preparing for that success.
In that moment we figured out the secret to living a happy life. All the prepartion you must do for when your big shot comes is the success story. ASAP mob got it right in 2012, when they properly arrived on this scene with “always strive and prosper”. As much as being in certain social circles (to make connections) is important in todays society, your personal hustle and growth is key.
Phase three of my mood swings — Acceptance: “Preparing is the success”.
Preparing for success in the moments of drought contributes to your success. When you lack inspiration or run out of that creative juice. How you overcome that dry spell is equipping you for future success. You’ll know how to distract yourself or jumpstart your brain in those crucial moments. I now realise that, the overtime spent in retail is securing your funds to invest in future creative projects, when you do gain that free time. Everything you do and how you react affects your success story.
I’m not going to go into anymore detail about what you should do or how to do it. Just do it. There are enough motivational quotes/speeches out there to tune into or save as your lock screen lol.
In conclusion it’s really about “getting off your ass and creating your life”- Ferg. Make space to fit you, don’t ever try to fit into the space. If Ari told us there’s so much room at the top, then we’ve got to keep on climbing.